so i love the fact that my perinatal doc doesn't weigh me. it's almost like an unspoken thing: women who come there just want healthy babies and if they get fat, they get fat. my OBs office is another matter, but thankfully none of those docs have had the nerve to say anything about it yet. i KNOW i can lose whatever weight i gain with this pregnancy. and even if i wasn't sure or couldn't do it - there is no way in hell i'm going to let anyone give me a hard time for eating when i'm hungry. i know the difference between thirst and hunger and believe me - this is hunger. i ballooned with delaney around this time, never got this far with lillian and so now it just feels normal and actually quite good to be eating and feeling like a cow already for this baby.
let me be clear - i am in no way complaining about being pregnant. in fact i am one of those women i used to think i would want to slap because they like it so much. what i am saying is (as always in my opinion):
once you have suffered through what no one should have suffered from you deserve some serious slack about things that really don't matter. and gaining and reasonable amount of weight during pregnancy doesn't matter. i want this baby bad. and i'm not going to let a silly thing like what i choose to eat stress me out any more than all the other bajillion things that won't let me sleep as it is.
i have NOT gorged myself on big macs or huge bowls of ice cream, but dammit if i feel like it i sure as hell will. (i did eat 6 clementines in one sitting the other night, though) i deserve this small freedom and i will spoil myself.
rant complete.
It's hungry business building a baby! Good for you for not sweating the small stuff. I completely agree with you about cutting yourself some slack. You've been through a horrible ordeal, suffered tremendously, and pregnancy after losses like ours are terrifying and very stressful. Having a teensy bit more of you to love when your beautiful bub comes home with you is really not a big deal and certainly something you can remedy later if you should choose to do so.
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