i'm not alone anymore

i know that with a loving husband and a wonderful daughter that saying i felt alone might seem crazy, but after lillian died i truely did. the hollow and empty feelings i was having stayed with me for a long time. and now i can finally say those feelings have faded. of course i still miss her and wish she was with us, but because now i have baby c with me I can make it through the day much happier. for the next few months everywhere i go i'm not by myself. And feeling baby C move around has got to be one of the best therapies for my grief ever. I may be able to go off my meds sooner than i expected. that may also help me not feel so tired all the time! and i'm still in regular jeans, so all in all a good update at 19weeks.