a rough couple of days

i wish i could have posted something really positive and upbeat on groundhog day. i wish i could be so super happy right now. but these past few days have been rocky. i've had happy moments, but i've also worried a lot (surprise, surprise). take today for example, i was busy running around with my 3 year old and she was having a very needy, clingy day. usually i love those, but today when she constantly wanted to be picked up i just wore myself out. i didn't remember the baby kicking me in the morning and when i laid down for a nap with my daughter i almost panicked. eventually i was able to focus on my breathing and go to sleep, but not without a lot of effort. after we woke up i drank some hot tea with lots of sugar and sure enough that little booger started movin' and shakin' within 10 minutes. i won't lie - i felt like crying a million tears at that moment.
in what i had anticipated to be an extremely happy time was physically and emotionally draining. i'm slowing weaning myself off my zoloft and i can really tell a difference in the way i handle stress.
in the meantime i've made it through another few days of this pregnancy and i'm a few more steps closer to meeting this dream baby of mine. AND i got a blog award!!! so sweet!!! i will post about that soon.