Crazy little thing called love

Our Will
So my water broke at home just like with Lillian. You would have thought i would have been terrified right away, but it actually took until we were loading up in the car to start to panic. my daughter was super sweet putting her shoes on and getting her toys together. my husband broke every traffic law getting me to the hospital. AND we had my favorite nurse to check us in. She was there for us with Lillian's birth and let me listen to the heartbeat before we filled out any paperwork or did anything else. I teared up and had to take some really deep breaths once we heard that heartbeat. Then i said "ok now we're having a baby" and i think i finally got it. No more worrying - just do it.
Unlike with my first daughter i decided to not get an epidural. stupid, stupid, stupid. up until i was fully dilated i was fine. they gave me stadol, which made me feel like i had drank a few beers all at once, but that only lasts about an hour. So i went to push with no pain relief. it was some horrible pain. not as horrible as the infection with Lillian was, but it was definitely the 2nd most pain i've ever been in. for about 14 minutes. and then the second he was born the pain was immediately gone. i said "he was worth every second" and his eyes were open wide.
the cord was short, so my husband had to cut it really quickly before the baby would reach to lay on me. I'll never forget how he stretched his little right arm out to grab me and rubbed my chest. He quieted down shortly and i never thought i would let him go.
i still don't know his apgar scores. maybe they told me and i just wasn't aware of anything else. after what seemed like forever i let my husband hold him and let them bathe him.
The doctors and nurses never referred to him as my second child. he is my third and it was wonderful to be around people that understood. Both of his names mean "strong" and since he's already holding his head up pretty well on his own i think he physically fits his names. His first name has a lot of Lillian's letters in it and it also represents how much we had to go through to have him. It certainly wasn't easy, but absolutely worth every second of pain and worry. We have our son.
William Everette.